"I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday" ~Author Unknown
Here I sit, an
other month gone by and continue to find myself with more strength and determination than I had the month before. That doesn't go without saying that I still have my moments that I just want to scream, cry, yell, ask "WHY"? But moments are all they are and I continue on, pick myself up, dust myself off and continue on with as much positivity that I can muster. This also doesn't go without saying that I have my days in the near future that I am dreading...the whole month of October for example. Knowing that I should nearing the end of my pregnancy, training my co-workers to do my duties at my desk preparing for 10 weeks off of work. The closer October gets the bigger the hole feels knowing that the 10 weeks off is not going to happen...at least not now! I had a moment when I returned to bowling league knowing that I should be "huge" and "uncomfortable" and that I should have been only there for a few weeks then have to find a sub for me because I was at home with our child. In reference to huge, my sister's wedding will be a bittersweet day in my happiness for her wedding day but knowing how I was to look in the dress that she picked out for me. I was supposed to look hideous and I would give anything now to look like I was supposed to look! I continue to wish for a fast forward button to skip over all of the holiday season...just for this year...knowing that it should be Angel's first Halloween and first Thanksgiving and first Christmas...but now would give anything to skip right past to the New Year's and put this whole year behind me. The time couldn't come soon enough that I can say good-bye to 2010!!
Here I sit, an
other month gone by and continue to find myself with more strength and determination than I had the month before. That doesn't go without saying that I still have my moments that I just want to scream, cry, yell, ask "WHY"? But moments are all they are and I continue on, pick myself up, dust myself off and continue on with as much positivity that I can muster. This also doesn't go without saying that I have my days in the near future that I am dreading...the whole month of October for example. Knowing that I should nearing the end of my pregnancy, training my co-workers to do my duties at my desk preparing for 10 weeks off of work. The closer October gets the bigger the hole feels knowing that the 10 weeks off is not going to happen...at least not now! I had a moment when I returned to bowling league knowing that I should be "huge" and "uncomfortable" and that I should have been only there for a few weeks then have to find a sub for me because I was at home with our child. In reference to huge, my sister's wedding will be a bittersweet day in my happiness for her wedding day but knowing how I was to look in the dress that she picked out for me. I was supposed to look hideous and I would give anything now to look like I was supposed to look! I continue to wish for a fast forward button to skip over all of the holiday season...just for this year...knowing that it should be Angel's first Halloween and first Thanksgiving and first Christmas...but now would give anything to skip right past to the New Year's and put this whole year behind me. The time couldn't come soon enough that I can say good-bye to 2010!!However, with all of that said, I told myself that I would put positive things in this post and I am determined to do that for the first time in 15 weeks. =)
#1) My little sister is getting married this weekend!! It seems like she just got engaged but the time is finally here and I am excited to stand up next to her as her maid of honor!
#2) Along with my sisters wedding, I get to see all of our family that I don't get to see nearly enough!! I am looking forward to spending time with them all!
#3) Jay turned 30 on August 24th. My friend, Katie, and I threw him and
her husband, Matt, a surprise 30th birthday party and it was a great success! A short version of the story with Matt was that their son, Kale, was born on February 6th and Matt's 30th birthday was on the 7th so she wasn't able to do much for him so we combined the two and it was a lot of fun! A lot of friends and family were able to make it and we had a great time!
her husband, Matt, a surprise 30th birthday party and it was a great success! A short version of the story with Matt was that their son, Kale, was born on February 6th and Matt's 30th birthday was on the 7th so she wasn't able to do much for him so we combined the two and it was a lot of fun! A lot of friends and family were able to make it and we had a great time! 
#4) My dad turned the big 5-0 this year! We also had a get together for him, what was supposed to be a surprise of course didn't end up being one and he ended up finding out as always, but it was a good time (for the most part) and good to see friends and family show up for his 50th birthday party!
#5) Our "kids" are all growing up so very fast! Ashleigh (6 1/2) started the first grade this year, Colten (5) started Kindergarten, Alexander (4) started school and Brayden (2) continues to grow and develop everytime I see him!! We enjoy all the time that we get to spend with them! We also have our god-daughter, Meliah, who makes me smile each and everytime I see her! The way that her eyes light up when she sees her Aunt Nita makes me melt! She will have me wrapped around her little finger forever! =) In addition, we enjoy hearing about all of the other kids in our lives and how much they grow and how proud their parents are of them! While it isn't always the easiest to listen about other kids, we said from the very beginning that we would never not want to see and hear about the kids in our lives and how much their parents love them! That doesn't go without saying that it hurts at times but it would hurt a lot worst if years d
own the road I didn't try to involve myself as much as possible with them! While I don't do it nearly enough as it is, I do the best that I can! And of course, there is EmJay, the biggest baby of them all but she is my baby! She went to the vet today, got all of her shots then we came home and snuggled! =) She has enjoyed the summer thus far as she is our new race track mascot. In past, we have left her home but took her to the first race of the year when I wasn't able to do much and realized that she is very good there and enjoys that more than us leaving her for the weekend. So she has officially become the mascot!
own the road I didn't try to involve myself as much as possible with them! While I don't do it nearly enough as it is, I do the best that I can! And of course, there is EmJay, the biggest baby of them all but she is my baby! She went to the vet today, got all of her shots then we came home and snuggled! =) She has enjoyed the summer thus far as she is our new race track mascot. In past, we have left her home but took her to the first race of the year when I wasn't able to do much and realized that she is very good there and enjoys that more than us leaving her for the weekend. So she has officially become the mascot!#6) Jay continues to live his passion for racing! While we haven't done nearly the
racing that we usually do in the summer and he keeps saying "I don't enjoy it as much as I used to", I know better and it doesn't stop him from finding as many races as he can go to! While I know that I complain about it quite a bit, the pride that I feel when he is racing and how proud I am no matter how we finish, I couldn't imagine a summer without it (unless we were on the lake all summer with jet skis and/or at a golf course anywhere, then I could probably work on my imagination!) The few races that we have been to this year, he has done very well and as I mentioned, I am very proud of him!!
racing that we usually do in the summer and he keeps saying "I don't enjoy it as much as I used to", I know better and it doesn't stop him from finding as many races as he can go to! While I know that I complain about it quite a bit, the pride that I feel when he is racing and how proud I am no matter how we finish, I couldn't imagine a summer without it (unless we were on the lake all summer with jet skis and/or at a golf course anywhere, then I could probably work on my imagination!) The few races that we have been to this year, he has done very well and as I mentioned, I am very proud of him!!#7) My mom and dad decided to give up the Bedford Country Club and I couldn't be happier for them! We will have my mom back on holidays, family get-togethers and weekend visits that she doesn't have to work morning, noon and night and will be able to spend time with her family again!
In closing of the positive things in our lives, and probably the most important thing of all, is that we have each other! So many people reminded us that a tragedy in a family can .JPG)
either make or break your relationship. It can bring you closer together or it can rip you apart! We have made every effort possible to make sure that it didn't rip us apart. Was it always easy? No We had and still have our moments, our disagreements; but in the end we come through it together and remind each other that we need each other, we need to be each other's rocks and have to stand by one another! Jay is certainly my rock and I while I don't always agree with the way he handles things I have to trust that he does it for the right reasons and he is there for me whenever I need him to be.
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either make or break your relationship. It can bring you closer together or it can rip you apart! We have made every effort possible to make sure that it didn't rip us apart. Was it always easy? No We had and still have our moments, our disagreements; but in the end we come through it together and remind each other that we need each other, we need to be each other's rocks and have to stand by one another! Jay is certainly my rock and I while I don't always agree with the way he handles things I have to trust that he does it for the right reasons and he is there for me whenever I need him to be.Keep on going, and the chances are that you will stumble on something, perhaps when you are least expecting it. I never heard of anyone ever stumbling on something sitting down. ~Charles F. Kettering
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